Entry 54

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... starting rumors of the killing of the whole Family, and always
emphasizing that this tragedy -- was the supreme penalty brought to the
altar by the Emperor.

Nachman, and others, who -- it seems to me, know what they are talking
about, foresee many chances; the best of them, is of course the fact,
that some ...

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... are in this enterprise, and therefore it might be crowned with
success. I really do not know what to think. Only one point is clear:
I cannot believe that our sufferings, the sufferings of the whole
country, are unknown beyond our frontiers. They must be known; the
tears shed cannot during so long a time fall on stones, -- even stones
get wet. If they are not known, -- these sufferings, -- if our hands
stretched for help are not seen, if we are condemned just for the only
fact that we are Russians, -- and if ...

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